I'm not going to go into it here. It's not that I don't love you, really, I just think for the moment I need to keep some things for me. I need to write, but I need to do it out of sight. I need to do it for my eyes only (ok, well, mine and my shrink's). I will say, though, that things went extremely well. I feel so much release. And she is brilliant. Within the first hour of my seeing her, she was able to point out some things and give me stuff to think about that blows my mind, gives me instant chills, because it's so right on.

I'm sure as the time goes by, there will be things I want to share here, and that those of you who know me will know more of what I'm thinking about and learning. But I'm finding that part of my process needs to be inner. I'm feeling I need to guard things a bit before blurting them out. Those of you who know me, you know who you are, I can't wait to tell you all the things I'm figuring out. Those of you who don't, the dating life's goin' pretty darn well these days, so don't worry, I'll have something to say.

July 23, 2001