i'm leaning back. i'm leaning into her. i'm turning around. i'm turning around to kiss her. i'm smiling. she's smiling back. i'm listening. i'm singing. i'm moving to the beat. she's smiling. she's still smiling a lot.

Let them talk in this cheap town
We will burn the old house down
Cuz I love you crazy, love you blind
Love you til the end of time

she holds me, wrestling the back of a fold up chair to lace her arms around me. she's singing in my ear, "if i stayed true and tried.." her breath sends chills over me. her arms reach around me. her body fits mine. sometimes, i forget to watch the show--i'm watching her for her reaction. i'm witnessing her glow. i'm being told we're beautiful together. and we are.

I will love across the borders, I will wait until it's dark
I will fly and you'll be with me, my wings, your heart
Then our memory may fail us, and our language will go too
But the shooting stars will catch our
Celestial view

she's sick, but she forgets it for a moment. she's giddy. she's watching my sister and her best friend dance and tease and kiss and touch, fumbling around in a straight girl dance that makes her giggle and squeal.

But Annie I love you, that's always been clear
it's the layers of history that won't let us hear
the twisted compassion that's burning our ears
the distance from there to here
the distance from there to here

i'm in love. we're dancing. we're gleeful and brazen and melting into each other. we leave in an afterglow and curl into each other, humming a melody as we wait for sleep.

Cuz I feel the steady pull of things that I can't see
And I like it
I feel the steady pull of things that I can't see
And I like it, I like it, I like it

February 8, 2002