I'm seeing someone new.

No, now, get your mind out of the gutter, I'm talking about therapy. It's odd after all these years (11 of them) with one person to be searching again, trying to find someone I click with to work on the inner machinery that has its way of making things run smoothly or in fits and starts.

S was there with me through so much, since 15 years old. You can imagine the trajectory of the time with her--the moments of life she guided me through.

I'm ready, now, for something new. For a beginning. Ready to hit things at a different angle, to explore again, but there are rules I don't like and there's the burden financially and well, when all is said and done, I suppose the price of stress on my body and my spirit would be much higher. So, I'm diving in and trusting life and hoping to find my way back to my center once again.

February 12, 2003